No words.
No plotting.
Just questions, which is good, don't get me wrong, but how is it good when I don't even feel like starting to answer them?
It was a revelation when I discovered my writing productivity, i.e. my happiness, was related to the job I was doing. About a month ago, I was temporarily hired to a company and my job is to put data from emails I am sent into a database. The schedule was much better than my previous schedule at the grocery store, always shifting and changing. After the initial excitement of the job wore down, I realized something was wrong. Was it me? My attitude?
This week, I recognized what it was: The Job.
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| I wasn't sure what picture to put here. I took this laying down on my back on the deck, in summer. |
Having a job that destroys what I want to do most in the world, writing fantasy, is...Unfathomable. As said in Kerri Majors' This is Not A Writing Manual, anything that kills my (or your!) writing is not worth doing. But discovering what job I enjoy and feeds my writing is another task in itself. Discovering a job that keeps me healthy sounds impossible.
And yet, I find myself up for this task. If my happiness is at stake, if my writing is at stake, then I am willing to go as far as I can to gain it.
What about you? Do you find a particular job feeds your writing and your health?
Hello Jessica,
ReplyDeletewow, I'm sorry to read that your job affects you in such a bad way. I was in a similar situation in the past. I had a job, but it wasn't what I liked to do at all and just doing it for the money was like a nightmare to me. I became very depressed and was afraid of going to work every morning. It also affected my writing and hobbies in general. I felt always tired and unmotivated in my spare time.
Is there any opportunity for you to change your job? What I read about your current situation doesn't sound healthy. Doing something just for the money is hard.
Greetings from Germany,
Mimi
Typed a whole reply and it DIDN'T POST! Grr
DeleteAnyway, sorry it took me so long to reply, things have been hectic.
Luckily, this job is temporary; however, the deacription said 1-3 months so I'm not sure how long I'll be here (and I don't think my supervisors are sure, either). Currently torn between getting another temporary job, and getting hired here and searching for another job while I have a job. It's not healthy to keep this one, and I am searching for a way out of it while saving money and reading books on break. Also, staying positive! Trying to, at least.
Thanks for your comment, I truly enjoyed reading it.
Jess